when does this end?

Just an update since i haven't posted in a while. We got through the holidays, not unscathed, but got through them.

older son has had increase in his meds, and that seems to be what he needed. However, without the structure of his day on vacation, he barely held it together.

he even said "i cant wait till school starts again"...lol

on to my younger son. today is his birthday so i brought cup cakes and juice for his class....

when i went to pick him up from school, the after school director told me that during school he refused to share the cupcakes and juice...

so i get to take them home with him....

his arm is in a cast due to a fracture that he got from my older son, who was playing with him and didn't realize his own strenght...

i also got a note that he had a poor attitude today in school.

the thing that gets me, he was always so excited around his birthday, and now that he is home, he has been doing this 'baby talk'..(did i mention he is getting on my nerves)

id like to say "well, its his bday, and with adopted kids, it can bring up stuff"

but sometimes i wonder if that's just too easy for my kids...

so, i cant wait till its all over, I'm going out of my mind....

first was my older sons bday....at the bowling alley..that was crazy.

then Christmas, we had the family over for the holiday because we thought it would be easier to have them come to us...NOT!!!!!!!!!!!

forgot about the heavy duty cleaning and cooking that one must do.....

then came my sons friends bday party, another loaded day for the boys.

then came New years eve brunch for the family, that we like fools agreed to host this year, so on with the cleaning and scrubbing and cooking.

now its my younger sons bday, so I'm home baking his cake and cooking dinner for a few family members.

then in TWO weeks, off to chuckie cheese we go for his bday party (he really wants it there)

and then I am DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

too many parties, too many disruptions, doesn't make daddy a happy daddy, plus doesn't equal happy kids either....

sorry for the long post....but boy oh boy....I'm popped.

i was driving in my car today to pick up my son so i can bake his cake so i left early from work. On the way, i was listening to some music and Simon and Garfunkel came on....and i started to well up...

i was just getting so sad....

i think I'm starting to crash and my emotions are starting to catch up with me.

its time to put the Christmas decorations away, and i think I'm just gonna do a little at a time....the tree will be last, with all those pine needles everywhere.